What you make me want to be.

When it comes down to it I’ve realized some things. I want to fix things. I want to change who I’ve been lately. I want to apologize to you and truly be forgiven. I want you to apologize to me and actually mean it so I can forgive you, too. I want to be happy again, even if that means not having you in my life anymore. I want you to be happy, even if that means being with someone else. I want to say that to you someday, and actually mean it. I want to change your mind and make you stay. I already know that I can’t, but I still want that. I want to be a person that can be trusted again. I want to be the one person you can talk to for hours and not ever run out of anything to say. I want to be that one person that can make you feel like you have the world. I want to be someone you’d want. I want to be that one person you can actually be honest with about everything. I want to be that one person you’ll never fall out of love with, despite what happens between us. I want to be that one person that can always make you smile right after pissing you off. I want to be strong enough for you and stand by you like I know I can. I want to have a special connection with you that nobody would understand other than us. I want to be yours, and you be mine. But, I can’t be half of those things. Let alone, could I ever be anything you’d deserve or even want. But, I want to be. I guess what I’m saying is, all I really want is you. And I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, that could be enough for just this once.